Monday, April 18, 2011

Body flow.

I always support people who have big dream and i'll never think it's impossible because people who believe miracles , miracles believe them. But sometimes, reality is reality. 21st century people are living hard. As like me, a teenage (?) who are having direction problems, locating at a crossroad, to choose either reality or dream.

I had a thought of running away from home for my dream before, but I know myself. Maybe I can only stand for 30 minutes ? I will get back home and cry. Yea, guiltiness. So I never think about it before, u shall not do that too.

I am having bad days recently.

Yesterday, I had a deep talk with my 1st sister, she is such a intelligent woman, i have to say that. Between us, we have a huge age gap , 17 years.

I have to choose reality but never give up on my dream because i dont want them to worry about me. At the moment i decided this, i smiled but i don't really feel good for the decision I made honestly. I went to bed. At the morning when the sun is rising, my eyes automatically opened up. It was 7a.m. I recalled back the conversation between me and my sister and i closed back my eyes and i cried.

If i never ever have this dream, i won't suffer myself.

Ever since that day, tear up after I wake up had became a habit of mine , unknown reason. maybe I know the reason but for you this is a unknown. You better not know. Because it is a bad habit !






*PS: NEVER RUNAWAY FROM HOME !












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